My Thoughts Of Now

Life is just so boring now.. The coll fests have ended. And so is all the lukhagiri and time pass that we friends do together under the majestic tree in RRC and our own PUSHPA. Life was a roller coaster these 4 years. I met many great friends and back stabbers also. I gotto learn so many things.

Had entered college at my own will. I had taken admission and then informed my parents that they ought to get cash for my entry. My poor parents were taken totally by surprise. But till date i do not repent my decision. Instead i am very happy i took it.

I know that i shall miss this life a lot. Especially i shall miss my friends. Life is gonna take such a turn at this point. All my close ones are going far away from me. I have a terrible fear of losing them. I know that i have made many mistakes in the past. And i am so proud of my friends who stood through my thick and thin.

Life has opened new horizons for me. Within two months i may have to leave Mumbai. Lead a totally new life with new people and a new ambience. Sometimes this thrills me...sometimes i get scared of these things.

Nowadays i keep thinking of the future a lot. And i dunno y. I keep dreaming of how life is gonna take me. i have always beleived in planning and doing things. But here life lies ahead of me looming as a great mysterious force which is stirring mixed emotions within me.

This is the time when i am supposed to burn my ass as well as the midnight oil. cause i have exams in 2 weeks. But here i stay still the same...collecting notes and TRYING my best to START studying.

I keep telling myself that this is the last sem and that i need to give it my best shot. That this student life may never come back to me. that my parents are here doing their very best to see that i am provided with everything. That i owe it to them and GOD who has always been so grateful to me. Then also here i lie doing nothing...